no turning back.

well, the time has come!
in 24 hours, i will be on a flight to atlanta, and from there to amsterdam (maybe for some exploring) and then finally to nairobi. i finished packing today, cleaning my room, running last minute errands, and tried to keep myself occupied as i have been getting increasingly anxious about traveling. i think i am just ready to be there. once we arrive in nairobi, we will have about one day to unpack, sort everything, get familiar with mitumba, and prepare for the women's conference that will be friday through saturday. i feel humbled and unworthy to be talking to the women about hope, but i know the Lord will be ever so present during the conference and be leading our whole team by His spirit.

feelings of anxiety are never fun, and i had a rough time sleeping last night because of it. i have to admit that it is so easy to be overcome by fear after fear if i'm not clinging to the Lord and believing and knowing His Word. i am learning so much already about what it means to go to the Lord and give him all those anxieties, to cling to His word and to be in constant prayer. every time i have gone to the Lord to seek His word or in prayer for this trip, i have felt His peace and assurance. i know He will continue to teach me to draw near to Him before anything else, and i pray that i will continue to do that on this trip, no matter what the circumstance.

so anyways, i am going to leave with this song because we sang it at church on sunday, and it was a good reminder of what followers of Christ are living for, and from where the Lord has brought us.

"i have decided to follow Jesus...
the world behind me, the cross before me
the world behind me, the cross before me
the world behind me, the cross before me
no turning back, no turning back."